My Biggest Weakness .......
is Chocolate :)
No in reality, my biggest weakness is security in myself. For as long as I can remember I was alway the girl who kind of hid in the back not wanting all of the attention on me. IN high school things got better, and I didn’t mind if there was attention on me. When I was in Junior High- I was fat- no joke. I was the 5’ tall girl that weighed 180+lb.. I was very self conscious and didn’t like the way I looked or the clothes that I had to wear. I wore clothes I hide myself and felt better doing that.
I don’t really know what clicked in high school, but I will say that started competitive powerlifting helped me. When I was lifting, I wasn’t just another guy on the team, I was a girl, and I was strong, and I was doing really well. Powerlifting brought attention to me that I never thought I would have. I guess when you finish in the top 5 in the nation 3 years in a row that will happen. Local newspapers had articles about me, I had trophy’s hanging on the walls, and I was proud of myself. For once in my life, I was very proud of all that I had accomplished.
Heading to college my insecurities came back- would I meet new friends, would I fit in, did I make the right college choice? I quickly learned, I did make new friends, I did fit in, but I did not make the right college choice. I made a move back home and figured my life out.
Being in college helped me to grow as a person and the growing I did was helpful in overcoming my insecurities. I felt like I was finally secure in my body and knew who I really was as a person.
Things have continued to get better. I will have my days that I am very insecure in myself, but I work through them. I try to overcome my weaknesses and strive to be the best person I can be.
My wish is for Blair in this very judgmental world that she can be proud of herself and strong in her dreams. It’s a tough tough world out there but I am going to do my best to raise a strong girl with an even stronger sense of self-worth!