Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Struggle

Lately, I have felt that I am at a place in my life that I struggle to fit in.  I say this for a variety of reasons including work, family, location, and many more.  I feel like I struggle to fit in at work because I hate being tied down to my desk everyday.  With only a few people in our small office, I feel like I sit at my desk all day, answer phones, file papers, and do menial work.  Granted I have days that involve never sitting at my desk, but I just don't feel that I fit in.  I want to be challeneged by my job and am basically rarely challeneged now.  I've contemplated started as a direct-sales rep for a company such as thirty-one or pampered chef.  I would work to fulfill my goals and dreams and not just the wants and wishes of my employer.

I feel that the hubs and I struggle to fit in with our families too.  We married relatively young, and moved into a home that hubs had bought 2 years prior.  We both work decent jobs, are trying to remodel, save money, and pay my student loans.  We live in his hometown, an hour from mine.  My parents frequently tell me they've been my brothers or been to their houses but rarely visit us.  I'm the odd ball in my family because we are the only ones without a child/children.  Hubs family just rarely acknowledges we are around.  I'm the only one with student loans in the family- I was told we'll help you pay them back after school-never got any help thanks.  His family is a farming family that owns a decent amount of land and a small business.  Hubs would love to help with the family farm, but when he offers he's shunned with the "we've got enough help."  What did we do to deserve this really?  We work a lot, try and spend time with friends, and still get our own goals met.

We've contemplated if where we live is where we really want to be.  Is there more opportunity somewhere else that we would love, would we be happier there?  So many options that WE need to figure out.

I've decided that I made myself a list of things that are frustrating to me and/or goals I want to surpass in the near future.  Does anyone else have one of these or feel like you are stuck in your current situation?   Any advice is appreciated.....